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Saturday, October 29, 2005

Relationships...

We talked to our friend yesterday, and she said that her boyfriend for 6 years broke up with her. she asked us if it is okay to beg for him to come back, or do nothing. I can tell that she loved him... kasi paluha na siya nung sinabi niyang "break na kami!"...

We tried to answer her question, we said that "wag kang magmakaawa na bumalik siya", kasi yun ata ang plano niya, o ginawa niya. she asked again "kung lumalaki ang ulo nang mga guys kapag naghabol ang gurl sa guy, lalo na kapag nagmakaawa siya?", sabi namin "OO!!!" lalaki yun eh... sinong lalaki ang hindi magiging proud??? although in my case pag ayaw ko na ayaw ko na talaga... anyway... madami siyang tanong kasi nga 6 years sila, and I think its going to be tough for her forget him. hanggang napunta kami sa usapang....

"FLIRT".

suggestion nang friend ko in order to get over him, okay lang ang flirt....

Ayon sa www.wikipedia.org ang flirt o flirting daw ay....

Flirting is often described as casual conversation with a romantic touch, but it need not be spoken interaction at all.

Flirting is a way of treating serious things (such as sexual attraction) with an almost mocking or self-mocking air of ease. It can be either pleasantly diverting or wildly exciting, depending on the context.

People who flirt can speak and act in a way that suggests greater intimacy than is appropriate to the relationship (or to the amount of time the two people have known each other), without actually saying or doing anything inappropriate. One way they accomplish this is to communicate a sense of playfulness or irony.

Flirting is an important part of courtship. It often also continues into long term relationships like marriage.

Flirting consists of stylized gestures, language, body language, postures, and physiologic signs, some of which are also part of foreplay. Among these, at least in Western society, are:

Eye contact

Casual touches, or what is known in the "fast seduction" community as "kino"

Smiling suggestively

"Protean" signals, such as touching one's hair

Sending and receiving notes, poems, mix-tapes, or written music

Friendly teasing

Winking

There is one word that I think eh slang nang "Flirting", that is "Fling"(correct me if I'm wrong)
yun ang gustong iparating nang friend ko. syempre I thought about it kung wala ka ngang bf or gf okay yun, pero sabi nang friend ko ulit eh, kung may gf/bf ka okay lang ang fling.

sa mga loyal sa mga bf/gf at sobrang goodboy at girl , eh malamang nde nila to magagawa....

marami akong kilala na mga tao na mahilig sa ganito... may bf at gf na eh, may ka-fling...
bakit nga ba may mga taong may mga kafling???

bakit nga ba... maski ako di ko alam kung paano ko sasagutin ang tanong dito....

hehehe... share ko lang...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Television

I was talking to my sister a while ago, and we were watching tommy hilfiger's reality show titled "CUT", and we talked about different reality shows.
Lately kasi madalang na kong makapanood nang TV due to the reason na; una, isa na lang ang TV namin, nasira na ung isa eh. pangalawa, pag uwi ko galing work haharap na lang ako sa PC kaysa makipag-agawan sa TV. naabutan ko yung pinapanood nang sister ko, like yun extra challenge. naging era na kasi nang "REALITY SHOWS" mapa-foreign man o local.
Okay yung sa foreign as in most of them(I think?!) eh nag click naman dito sa pinas, like Survivor, Amazing race, etc. then inadapt yung trend na yun dito sa pinas, then we have extra challenge, Pinoy Big Brother, yung mga singing contest, yung mga star search atbp.
okay na sana, kasi na-adapt na nang pinas ang "reality show" na trend. kaso there is a slight problem...
try ko lang i-compare ang foreign reality show sa local:
First ang mga contestant- sa foreign, nagpapaaudition sila tapos nagkakataon na ang mga nakukuha nila eh mga "NOBODY", dito sa Pilipinas... MGA ARTISTA, at kung sino sino sa showbiz!!! anyway in understand what the producers are thinking, like pag artista ang nilagay nila sa reality show eh siguradong ma-aamuse ang mga tao kasi makikita nila ang katangahan, kagaguhan, kabaliwan, o yung tunay na pagkatao nang isang artista. kaysa pagnaglagay ka nang isang taong ordinaryo sa mga reality show eh malamang mag-flop ang palabas na yun.
Second ang mga challenges - sa foreign, medyo may challenge lalo na sa survivor, halatang pinaghihirapan ang pera dun kasi medyo mahirap ang mga challenges. sa local medyo common at sobrang simple, maarte kasi mga artista!!! may iba naman na okay, yung tipong ang iisipin nila pag di nila kinain ang buhay na uod eh, "baka sabihin nang mga tao eh maarte ako", sabay lunok nang buhay na uod. ang gusto makita nang tao eh yung tunay na pagkatao nang bawat players. hindi yung kaplastikan nila! may isa pa... sa Pinoy Big Brother, saan ka ba naman nakakita nang tao na pagnarinig ang theme song nang show eh sasayaw kahit naliligo ka sa banyo, o habang nagsisipilyo etc.??? kabalbalan sa kin yun.... asan ang realidad dun??? hay naku...
Third ang mga nananalo - sa foreign most of the contestant nga eh mga simpleng tao sa kani-kanilang mga bansa, mayron din namang mga mayayaman pero hindi na nila hinabol ang pera experience lang din. dito sa pinas, mga ARTISTA!!! nakamputa naman o!!! Mayayaman na yang mga yan!!! ang daming tao ang naghihirap, ang daming tao ang mas nangangailangan nang pera. bakit hindi yun ang hatakin nila para sumali sa show nila??? para paghirapan naman nila kahit konti ang malaking pera di bah???
wala naman akong grudge against sa mga artista or anyone sa showbiz. I'm blaming the producers and directors.
Pabor sa kin ang mga local reality shows, as in okay na... pero try lang sana nila mag experiment na hindi sikat na tao ang ipasok nila sa mga reality show nila. tignan niyo na lang yung ibang mga singing contest atleast yung mga kasali dun eh, talagang simpleng mga tao lang... tsaka sana try din nilang maging creative.
more power sa mga Local TV, kahit di na ko masyado nakakapanood nang TV

Saturday, October 22, 2005

LAKLAK

Another day at the office, and my head is aching. Kulit kasi sabing hindi na iinom sige pa rin, masakit na nga ang tagiliran, paano feeling ko may ulcer na ko, kasi tuwing iinom nang beer sumasakit na tiyan ko. hirap talaga pag maaga kang namulat sa mga bisyo.

ARGH!!!!

sakit talaga nang ulo ko, madaling tigilan ang pag inom. ang pag tanggi sa nag aya ang mahirap.
nakakahiya kasi minsan na lang mag aaya tatablahin mo pa, sabihin KJ ka o di kaya eh nang iiwan ka sa ere.

Naalala ko tuloy yung mga dating kabarkada ko sa amin, mga 3rd year High School kami nun, same din ang naririnig ko sa kanila... "walang iwanan sa ere!". lakas nang trip namin nun inuman as in pagtapos nang school, grabe feeling ko nga eh sunog baga na ko nun... tapos kala mo mga tunay na kaibigan, hay naku.di mo nga iniwan sa ere, putcha ginago ka naman. papasukin mo sa bahay mo tapos papakialaman ang mga gamit at nanakawin... magugulat ka na lang na may nawala sa gamit mo... hindi mo naman maisip kung sino ang kumuha kasi ang dami nila... tinulungan mo yung GF nang kabarkada mo tapos, maiinlab sa iyo ung GF niya. magagalit pa yung katropa mo kasi daw sinulot mo. kasalanan ko ba kung mas naging maalaga ako kaysa sa BF niya??? lam ko mali din ako, pero mas mali siya na pabayaan na lang nang ganun ang GF niya... galing pa, kumalat pa sa mga kapitbahay na lasenggo ka, tapos yung mga kabarkada mo hindi, alam nang mga kapitbahay eh mga mababait yung barkada mo. ikaw na yung inaaya, ikaw pa yung naging BI!!! nakakabadtrip yun, pag usapan ka ba naman nang buong baranggay. hehehe, dahil dun naging manhid ako sa mga chismisan. ikaw ba naman maging talk of the town for four months tingnan natin kung hindi ka maging manhid. Ngayon medyo cool na kami nung mga yun, pwera sa iba kasi talagang tindi nang galit sa kin nung iba sa hindi ko malamang dahilan... yung isa ata nagalit dahil niligawan ko ung pinsan niya...

Tinawag pa kong "Black Sheep" hay.... talaga naman... kaya naman feeling ko minsan eh demonyo ako na nag anyong tao, hehehe... mukhang inosente ang mukha pero demonyo pala!!!
Bwahahaha!!! mga ganyang tawa.... hay.... wala lang pero past is past!!!

Pero sakit pa din nang ulo ko!!!

Friday, October 21, 2005

Filipinos are worth dying for...

I was checking my mail and I came across this one mail, with a subject "HATE LETTER TO THE FILIPINOS". I was curious so I opened it, they attached a file which was made by "Mr. Art Bell".

And this was his letter:

Filipinos.....*make me puke* (Art Bell)

As we've all come to notice, in the past few decades, Filipinos have begun to infest the United States like some sort of disease. Their extensive involvement in the U.S. Armed Forces is proof of the trashy kind of qualities all filipinos tend to exhibit on a regular basis. You can see this clearly by studying the attitudes and cultural Icons of most Filipino Americans.
Origins of Pinoys/Pinays:
Are they really asian? Well we've come to accept the fact the fil ipinos come from a part of the world known as South East Asia. But the term "Asia" is used in the wrong way. You may notice that contemporary Filipino Americans try very hard to associate themselves with groups that we know as Asian. I cannot count the number of times I have seen a 'Third World' Filipino try to connect themselves to the chinese or Japanese people. There is no connection and here's why. The Philippines is a Third World country. Nothing respectable has EVER been created by Filipino people during our entire human history. Young filipino men in America have become obsessed with "import racing". They have an enormously perverted affection for Japanese cars. It's a common phenomenon. In their minds, these Filipinos somehow believe that they are asian and that it somehow connects them to Japanese people and japanese cars. They often take credit for the ingenuity of Japanese people ! and say how it's an "Asian thing". This term..."Asian thing" derived directly from African American slang "black thang". "It's a black thang." "It's an asian thang."
You can see the connection. It's even funnier that, in Japan, Filipinos are heavily discriminated against. The only filipinos that can live successfully in Japan are the filipino prostitutes. But that's the case for most Filipino people no matter where they live in the world. Now we've come down to this fact...and it is a fact.
Nothing in Filipino Culture can be seen as Asian.
They have no architectural, artistic, or cultural influence which is in ANY way, asian. Thinking of the great countries in Asia such as Japan, Korea, and China there is no way you can possibly connect the Philippine Islands. This assault by filipino americans to connect themselves with the great peoples of North East Asia is foul and disgusting. Try visiting a young filipino's web site too.
You'll see somethi ng called the "Asian IRC Ring". It has to do with the chatrooms. The most horrible thing about this is that these TRASHY people are trying to associate themselves with Asia again!! People in Asia don't act like, this at all. What we are seeing here is the natural Filipino in it's element with full access to technology and this is how they act! You will consistently see this behavior over and over again.
Another interesting thing is that these "thirdworld" people also frequent RC chatrooms such as #chinese #japan and #asian. They must believe that they are some how related racially or culturally to North Asians. But it's completely WRONG! There might have been some distant contact With China and even less with Japan during World War II, but these people are actually more closely related to african americans and Mexican americans.
Do the parents of these young filipinos know what's going on? Would they accept this? I believe that they would and do. This is the natural "Trash" element in filipinos manifesting itself. Nothing good has ever come from Philippines and I don't believe anything good ever will.
Recognizing your Roots (A Message to Filipinos). To all filipino people:
Please recognize your ROOTS! You come from the Third World! You country is a disgusting and filthy place. Most people there live in poverty! Your culture has MUCH MORE SPANISH influence than chinese, and absolutely no JAPANESE influence whatsoever. People in Japan and China, do not act like you. They do not constantly talk about sex and they have a MUCH HIGHER level of RESPECT for each other. There is NO WAY that you can connect yourself to Asia other than location.
Your culture and technological advancement does not even come CLOSE to What Chinese, people have done in the past and what Japanese and Korea n people are doing now! Everything you do is distinctly filipino. You cannot take credit for Japanese cars, video games, or Hentai! It's not an "asian thing" it's, an "American thing". You have no concept of culture...no concept of asian ideas or asian philosophy! Can you demonstrate how you use Confucianism or Taoism in you everyday life?? You can't. And you will NEVER be able to.
I understand that you are trying to create an identity for yourselves as young people... but it is NOT related to Asia. Your Identity is Filipino.
That's all you are. Just Filipino. Think about what that means....

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I did a little research about this letter, and i found out that this was just a hoax and Art Bell denied, writing this letter. He even sued Philippine Daily Inquirer after the newspaper published the email. His wife Ramona was even a Filipina...(I Think).

damn... who ever made this letter must had a bad experience on the Philippines or maybe on filipino's... hahaha... good for him/her!!!

Anyway after reading the letter, of course I felt angry, because I am proud to be a filipino.

Along with the email, they attached a speech by a mascom student from UP Diliman, who competed in the 2004 International Public Speaking Competition conducted by the English Speaking Union(ESU) in London. She was Patricia Evangelista.

A Speech Worth Reading....

BLONDE AND BLUE EYES

When I was little, I wanted what many Filipino children all over the country wanted. I wanted to be blond, blue-eyed, and white.I thought -- if I just wished hard enough and was good enough, I'd wake upon Christmas morning with snow outside my window and freckles across my nose!More than four centuries under western domination does that to you. I have sixteen cousins. In a couple of years, there will just be five of us left in the Philippines, the rest will have gone abroad in search of "greener pastures." It's not just an anomaly; it's a trend; the Filipino diaspora. Today, about eight million Filipinos are scattered around the world.There are those who disapprove of Filipinos who choose to leave. I used to. Maybe this is a natural reaction of someone who was left behind, smiling for family pictures that get emptier with each succeeding year. Desertion, I called it. My country is a land that has perpetually fought for the freedom to be itself. Our heroes offered their lives in the struggle against the Spanish, the Japanese, the Americans. To pack up and deny that identity is tantamount to spitting on that sacrifice.Or is it? I don't think so, not anymore. True, there is no denying this phenomenon, aided by the fact that what was once the other side of the world is now a twelve-hour plane ride away. But this is a borderless world, where no individual can claim to be purely from where he is now. My mother is of Chinese descent, my father is a quarter Spanish, and I call myself a pure Filipino-a hybrid of sorts resulting from a combination of cultures.Each square mile anywhere in the world is made up of people of different ethnicities, with national identities a nd individual personalities. because of this, each square mile is already a microcosm of the world. In as much as this blessed spot that is England is the world, so is my neighborhood back home.Seen this way, the Filipino Diaspora, or any sort of dispersal of populations, is not as ominous as so many claim. It must be understood. I come from a Third World country, one that is still trying mightily to get back on its feet after many years of dictatorship. But we shall make it, given more time. Especially now, when we have thousands of eager young minds who graduate from college every year. They have skills. They need jobs. We cannot absorb them all.A borderless world presents a bigger opportunity, yet one that is not so much abandonment but an extension of identity . Even as we take, we give back. We are the 40,000 skilled nurses who support the UK's National Health Service. We are the quarter-of-a-million seafarers manning most of the world's commercial ships. W e are your software engineers in Ireland, your construction workers in the Middle East, your doctors and caregivers in North America, and, your musical artists in London's West End.Nationalism isn't bound by time or place. People from other nations migrate to create new nations, yet still remain essentially who they are. British society is itself an example of a multi-cultural nation, a melting pot of races, religions, arts and cultures. We are, indeed, in a borderless world!Leaving sometimes isn't a matter of choice. It's coming back that is. The Hobbits of the shire travelled all over Middle-Earth, but they chose to come home, richer in every sense of the word. We call people like these balikbayans or the 'returnees' -- those who followed their dream, yet choose to return and share their mature talents and good fortune.In a few years, I may take advantage of whatever opportunities come my way. But I will come home. A borderless world doesn't precl ude the idea of a home. I'm a Filipino, and I'll always be one. It isn't about just geography; it isn't about boundaries. It's about giving back to the country that shaped me.And that's going to be more important to me than seeing snow outside my windows on a bright Christmas morning.

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eventhough there are a lot of problems in our country, I'm still proud to be...

FILIPINO

Thursday, October 20, 2005

beginning to see my softer side once again!!!(DAMN!!)

In A Rush
BlackStreet feat. Stevie Wonder

It came over me in a rush
When I realized that I love you so much
That sometimes I cry,
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

How I try to express what's been jugglin' my mind
But still can't find the words
But I know that something's got a hold of me

It came over me in a rush
When I realized that I love you so much
That sometimes I cry,
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

Baby, some day I'll find a way to say just what you mean to me
But if that day never comes along and you don't hear this song
I guess you'll never know that...

It came over me in a rush
When I realized that I love you so much
That sometimes I cry, but I cant tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

And when I say inside, I mean deep
You fill my soul with something I cannot explain
What's over me

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Just heard this song last night... twice...

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Infatuation can always lead to love

Damn!!! Another day has passed and still I can't get her out of my head!!!
When I woke up this morning I looked at my bed and I thought I saw her lying there. I just went to the bathroom to wash my face, kasi naman kung ano ano na ang nakikita ko... then I went back to bed kasi ang lamig pa eh, sarap matulog at yakapin ang unan.
Hanggang ngayon iniisip ko pa din kung bakit ganun ang naisip ko...siguro kasi sobrang antok na antok pa ko nung bumangon ako nun kaya siguro sabog lang ako!!!
Ano bang nakita ko sa iyo, at bakit ako nagkakaganito??? I'm always asking myself this
question these past few weeks... kasi maski ako di ko masagot yun!!!
Nakakabadtrip!!!
siya na agad ang gusto kong hanapin... siya na din ang hinihintay magtext... damn!!! I keep telling myself na "mawawala din to!" (goodluck!)
Pero ayon sa isang comment sa Blog ko... "Infatuation can always lead to love" napaisip nanaman ako. Tama siya, although pwedeng mawala yun, dun pa rin ang bagsak nun "LOVE".
madrama na kung madrama, eh puro tawa naman ako at ngisi sa opisina kaya okay lang kahit dito man lang eh medyo nakikita ang softer side ko!!!
Bahala na!!!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Buhay nga naman....(yawn!!!)

Buhay nga naman mapaglaro... nakakayamot!!! bakit naman kasi kung kailan hindi ka na naghihintay nang dadating sa buhay mo eh, biglang may isang dadating na tao! sa hindi pa inaasahang pagkakataon!!! yung tipong tahimik ka na at lahat (well not for me, kunwari lang) hindi ako naghahanap pero laging mali lang talaga ang timing!!!
Nakakabadtrip!!!
Minsan ok ang timing, pero mas madalas eh laging ala sa tyempo!!! nde ko din alam kung magiging masaya ako dahil may dumating o mayayamot ako kasi may dumating!!! ang gulo gulo tuloy nang isip ko!!! lagi pa naman akong wala sa hulog kaya minsan biglaan na lang ang pagdedesisyon, kaya minsan napapasubo. ang labo pa hinde mo din malaman kung bakit gusto mo dun sa dumating na tao. Hihintayin ko na lang mawala ito... yun eh.... kung mawawala... eh paano kung hindi???
Sakit sa ulo nito...
Minsan nga ayaw ko na lang isipin... kasi napapakamot lang ako nang ulo.... eh ang kaso lagi mo naman siyang maiisip!!! kahit ayaw mo.... parang Involuntary!!! hehehe!!! weirdo na talaga ako!!! abnormal pa!!!
Ang naisasagot ko na lang tuloy eh... Bahala na!!! ito pa ang isang masamang ugali ko... inaasa ko na lang palagi sa "chance", "tingnan ko na lang kung ano ang mangyayari", lagi ko kasing sinsugal ang lahat!!! kaya ito di ko alam kong mananalo ako o hindi... katulad nga nang sabi ko... "bahala na!!!
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But then again, it got me thinking "di kaya infatuation lang ito???". kasi parang biglaan lang eh, minsan talaga ganun ako hindi ko ma-distinguish ang love sa infatuation. so while I'm headed home inisip ko and I analyzed everything that happend these past few weeks "baka nga infatuation lang". Kasi I don't believe in love at first sight, at these time because of that a lot of people are breaking up, and getting divorced. maybe meron mga tao na nagkatuluyan dahil dun, na hanggang ngayon eh married pa din sila or tumagal ang relationship nila nang mga let's say 4 years??? but the point is madalang yun!!!
well i just decided to give it time, kung hindi nawala tong naramdaman ko, tunay na to... kung nawala, infatuation nga...
or am I just being a hypocrite?