Please give me novacaine

I really want to give up on you
but everytime I see you I always take back what I said
It seems that this would be very hard for me
I really do love you
Sometimes I feel stupid
Sometimes I feel weak
Sometimes I just wish I was numb
But whenever you are around you make me feel good
Just seeing you smile lights up my day
Even though I know that beneath that smile there is much emptiness and sadness
I want to save you, but I don't know how
I know that you won't love me back
I'm not really expecting anything
But sometimes I wonder if that would be possible
would someone please give me novacaine